I’m so tired of trying.. I always end up the one crying at night.

I’m tired of hearing “Oh I did this in high school” blahblahblah. Guess what. You’re not in high school anymore. You’re not doing anything and it puts so much stress on me. I hate it.

What do you do when everything’s falling apart around you?..

This is the question that I’ve been asking myself for the past two days. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. All I do is argue, and I don’t see a way to fix anything. I’m so mentally tired. Physically, I smile all the time. But on the inside I’m so tired. I just want to sleep for days. I hate how I can’t stop this. I feel so helpless and useless. I might lose one of the best things in my life, but it’s like I’m on a path of destruction…

Have you ever felt like you held someone back from doing what would have been best for them? I have. Sometimes I regret it. Sometimes I’m glad I did. I don’t think I’ll ever get over it.

But I guess on the brighter side, they don’t blame me. But they don’t really know I think about it..

Being half asleep and on tumblr on my phone isn’t a good idea-.- my fat fingers keep clicking everything wrong-__-